J.O.Y.

Anyone else familiar with this acronym? For those not in the know, it represented what was supposed to be the hierarchy of needs within certain corners of evangelicalism as it was taught to children. It went:JesusOthersYourself Can we please talk about how toxic and damaging this is? What this teaches children is that, in the … Continue reading J.O.Y.

Conspiracy Theories: Conclusion Vs Fact

Conspiracy theories are insidious and powerful. They often come from the people we trust the most: our friends, our families, our spiritual leaders, even our government leaders. These are the people with whom we tend to have our guards down because we trust them inherently. We believe that they would never - could never - … Continue reading Conspiracy Theories: Conclusion Vs Fact

Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

My upbringing in evangelicalism instilled me with a lot of shame for my identity. While I was told that the greatest thing in the world was to find my identity in Jesus, I was also taught that I would be hated because I found my identity in Jesus. I don't actually remember a time in … Continue reading Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

They Told Me To Find A Love

a poem about the love of my life; the man my Christian culture told me to avoid.

A Monster Called Trauma

Yesterday I had a session with my therapist. I began to open up about something traumatic I had experienced. It's something that I've never had time or space to talk about or think about. Because part of being a Good Christian Girl™ is to keep quiet and keep the peace. But yesterday, I broke my … Continue reading A Monster Called Trauma

Mental Health in the midst of Pandemic

How are we all doing today? I'll be honest, I am struggling. I'm lucky. My partner has his job. We have a roof over our heads and food in our fridge. We're young and reasonably healthy. We're able to practice social distancing to protect ourselves and others. I know I am lucky. I know there … Continue reading Mental Health in the midst of Pandemic

Coronavirus and The End Of The World

In my home growing up, I was told to prepare myself for The Great Tribulation. The Great Tribulation, for anyone not familiar with either my work or the Last Days movement, is a doctrine within certain sects of Christianity that describes hardship in the end times. The prediction is that during this time of tribulation, … Continue reading Coronavirus and The End Of The World

Called Out From The Comfort of Certainty

I grew up in a black and white world. There was truth and there was deception; there was right and there was wrong. We knew the truth about salvation, righteousness, and sin. There was no room for questions because all of the answers had been found.  I attended various denominations throughout my life. But the … Continue reading Called Out From The Comfort of Certainty

Growing Up in the Last Days

A key for those unfamiliar with the "last days" movement: The Rapture: the moment when Jesus appears in the sky and summons all believers around the globe to float upwards to meet Him and follow Him back to Heaven. The (Great) Tribulation: a period of 7 years during which the Antichrist will begin his reign … Continue reading Growing Up in the Last Days