Holy Weekend

Good FridayTime of death was calledHope has evaporatedWhere do we go from here?How could our Love leave us like this?He was supposed to beThe MessiahThe RevolutionaryThe KingHow did this happen?Where do we go from here? Holy SaturdayGrief hangs heavy in the airWeighing heavy on our soulsCrushing usPushing usDown to our kneesOur Love is goneSwallowed by … Continue reading Holy Weekend

J.O.Y.

Anyone else familiar with this acronym? For those not in the know, it represented what was supposed to be the hierarchy of needs within certain corners of evangelicalism as it was taught to children. It went:JesusOthersYourself Can we please talk about how toxic and damaging this is? What this teaches children is that, in the … Continue reading J.O.Y.

The Bible Isn’t Clear

I grew up being told that homosexuality is wrong, because the Bible is clear. Imagine my surprise when I discovered that the OT doesn't forbid same-sex relationships between women. Or that the "homosexuality" referred to in the NT wasn't at all what we mean when we talk about homosexuality today. All my life, I was … Continue reading The Bible Isn’t Clear

What Happens Now?

I am heartbroken. Utterly heartbroken. I don't know what to do with my grief. I don't know how to sit with all of this anger and shock and sadness. I just don't know. I've been quietly pushing back against dominionism and White christian nationalism for years. But most people could not see it. Until now.And … Continue reading What Happens Now?

The Book of Longings (A Book Review)

The Book of Longings by novelist Sue Monk Kidd is a new book that was released only months ago. The book takes a look at the life of Ana, the girl who would grow up to become the wife of Jesus. I initially decided against buying the book for a couple of reasons. First, I … Continue reading The Book of Longings (A Book Review)

Loving Yourself Is Not Sin

A few days ago, while looking through my memories on Facebook, I saw an old post of mine. In this post, I was talking about how, at the time, I genuinely believed that I was unlovable. I saw myself as someone who didn't deserve love or companionship because I felt inherently broken. I couldn't envision … Continue reading Loving Yourself Is Not Sin

Because Of Rachel Held Evans

I've been trying to put into words all that Rachel Held Evans meant to me. That's a hard thing to do. She was extremely instrumental in reshaping my own faith after I'd begun to deconstruct. So much of my life over the last 5 years has been trying to make sense of a faith that … Continue reading Because Of Rachel Held Evans

Does God Require Adversity?

"The fact is, God is not concerned whether we are happy or not. But he is very concerned over whether we are holy. We can be happy and on our way to hell. But if we are holy, it is only because the Holy One is at home in his temple, our hearts. So we … Continue reading Does God Require Adversity?

“Shameless” Review

Last night, I finished the latest book written by Nadia Bolz-Weber, “Shameless”. This is the book I wish I could have read 4 years ago when I was beginning to question the teaching I’d received my entire life from the church in regards to sexuality, gender roles, and the marginalized (particularly the LGBTQ+ community). Nadia … Continue reading “Shameless” Review

New Beliefs, Same Old Worldview

This is a topic that's been weighing on my heart a lot over the last year, particularly in recent weeks. In my conservative days, authoritarianism reigned supreme. We were told what to believe. We were told not to question. We were told not to disagree. We were told that if someone did not have the … Continue reading New Beliefs, Same Old Worldview