Holy Weekend

Good FridayTime of death was calledHope has evaporatedWhere do we go from here?How could our Love leave us like this?He was supposed to beThe MessiahThe RevolutionaryThe KingHow did this happen?Where do we go from here? Holy SaturdayGrief hangs heavy in the airWeighing heavy on our soulsCrushing usPushing usDown to our kneesOur Love is goneSwallowed by … Continue reading Holy Weekend

Apologetics: For Them or For Us?

I know I wasn't the only one who grew up in White evangelicalism who was taught to love the art of apologetics. Oh we spent so much time pouring over books, attending conferences, watching debates, and learning our scripts to argue the faithless and heretics into the truth. We knew exactly how to trap someone … Continue reading Apologetics: For Them or For Us?

J.O.Y.

Anyone else familiar with this acronym? For those not in the know, it represented what was supposed to be the hierarchy of needs within certain corners of evangelicalism as it was taught to children. It went:JesusOthersYourself Can we please talk about how toxic and damaging this is? What this teaches children is that, in the … Continue reading J.O.Y.

Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

My upbringing in evangelicalism instilled me with a lot of shame for my identity. While I was told that the greatest thing in the world was to find my identity in Jesus, I was also taught that I would be hated because I found my identity in Jesus. I don't actually remember a time in … Continue reading Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

All You Need Is Love


“The knowledge that I had soaked up and parroted back to the choir told them that I was an approved child of God. I had found the key to life buried amongst my books and conference notes that I had diligently scribbled as I sought to expand my understanding of God and the gospel.

I was the picture of a saved and anointed woman.

Until the truth that I began to speak broke from what was permissible for us.”

Called Out From The Comfort of Certainty

I grew up in a black and white world. There was truth and there was deception; there was right and there was wrong. We knew the truth about salvation, righteousness, and sin. There was no room for questions because all of the answers had been found.  I attended various denominations throughout my life. But the … Continue reading Called Out From The Comfort of Certainty

November Reads

Okay! Back on time with alllllll of the books that I read in November. As always, if you've read any of these books feel free to leave me a comment and let me know your own thoughts! The Old Curiosity Shop by Charles Dickens (Finished November 1) I seem to be getting back into classics, … Continue reading November Reads

Eshet Chayil

I began to write this poem after watching the funeral of Rachel Held Evans. I listened to her friends and family describe her as a woman who always asked the hard questions, always loved, always gave of herself when she could. I couldn't stop thinking to myself, "They are talking about a woman who was … Continue reading Eshet Chayil

Because Of Rachel Held Evans

I've been trying to put into words all that Rachel Held Evans meant to me. That's a hard thing to do. She was extremely instrumental in reshaping my own faith after I'd begun to deconstruct. So much of my life over the last 5 years has been trying to make sense of a faith that … Continue reading Because Of Rachel Held Evans

Does God Require Adversity?

"The fact is, God is not concerned whether we are happy or not. But he is very concerned over whether we are holy. We can be happy and on our way to hell. But if we are holy, it is only because the Holy One is at home in his temple, our hearts. So we … Continue reading Does God Require Adversity?