Holy Weekend

Good FridayTime of death was calledHope has evaporatedWhere do we go from here?How could our Love leave us like this?He was supposed to beThe MessiahThe RevolutionaryThe KingHow did this happen?Where do we go from here? Holy SaturdayGrief hangs heavy in the airWeighing heavy on our soulsCrushing usPushing usDown to our kneesOur Love is goneSwallowed by … Continue reading Holy Weekend

Apologetics: For Them or For Us?

I know I wasn't the only one who grew up in White evangelicalism who was taught to love the art of apologetics. Oh we spent so much time pouring over books, attending conferences, watching debates, and learning our scripts to argue the faithless and heretics into the truth. We knew exactly how to trap someone … Continue reading Apologetics: For Them or For Us?

J.O.Y.

Anyone else familiar with this acronym? For those not in the know, it represented what was supposed to be the hierarchy of needs within certain corners of evangelicalism as it was taught to children. It went:JesusOthersYourself Can we please talk about how toxic and damaging this is? What this teaches children is that, in the … Continue reading J.O.Y.

Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

My upbringing in evangelicalism instilled me with a lot of shame for my identity. While I was told that the greatest thing in the world was to find my identity in Jesus, I was also taught that I would be hated because I found my identity in Jesus. I don't actually remember a time in … Continue reading Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

They Told Me To Find A Love

a poem about the love of my life; the man my Christian culture told me to avoid.

God Sees You Podcast Transcript

You can find the audio for this podcast episode on Spotify. God Sees You In todays episode, I want to encourage you with this thought: God sees you.  God tells the Prophet Samuel that he doesn’t look at outward appearances like men do. God goes deeper and sees into the heart.  For those of us … Continue reading God Sees You Podcast Transcript

Jacob And His Sex Cult

CONTENT WARNING: Sexual Abuse, Rape, sex slaveryFor those not in the know, I am currently enrolled in a four year program called Education for Ministry. If you are #exevangelical and want to learn how to read the Bible without the lens of the Evangelical narrative, I can recommend this program. You will read the entire … Continue reading Jacob And His Sex Cult

Deconstruction & Self-Care

Last week, I discussed deconstruction & complementarianism. I acknowledged how being immersed in a subculture that dictates to us how we should view and think of ourselves can have a devastating impact on one's mental health. While my focus in that post was on complementarianism, this is true of all toxic theology. Religious beliefs can … Continue reading Deconstruction & Self-Care

Deconstruction & Complementarianism

The topic of deconstruction has been coming up a lot lately with prominent figures speaking about their personal deconstruction and loss of faith. Deconstruction is a stage of faith that many go through when they stop accepting the faith they’ve been told they must have by their peers, families, and church communities. They begin to … Continue reading Deconstruction & Complementarianism