Holy Weekend

Good FridayTime of death was calledHope has evaporatedWhere do we go from here?How could our Love leave us like this?He was supposed to beThe MessiahThe RevolutionaryThe KingHow did this happen?Where do we go from here? Holy SaturdayGrief hangs heavy in the airWeighing heavy on our soulsCrushing usPushing usDown to our kneesOur Love is goneSwallowed by … Continue reading Holy Weekend

There Is No Atheist Agenda

If you've grown up in conservative white Evangelicalism, the chances are that you've heard some horrible things said about those who do not share in the Christian faith. That world sees enemies everywhere, and at the very top of that enemy list: atheists. Growing up in Evangelicalism, we were constantly quoting Psalm 14:1 as a … Continue reading There Is No Atheist Agenda

Apologetics: For Them or For Us?

I know I wasn't the only one who grew up in White evangelicalism who was taught to love the art of apologetics. Oh we spent so much time pouring over books, attending conferences, watching debates, and learning our scripts to argue the faithless and heretics into the truth. We knew exactly how to trap someone … Continue reading Apologetics: For Them or For Us?

J.O.Y.

Anyone else familiar with this acronym? For those not in the know, it represented what was supposed to be the hierarchy of needs within certain corners of evangelicalism as it was taught to children. It went:JesusOthersYourself Can we please talk about how toxic and damaging this is? What this teaches children is that, in the … Continue reading J.O.Y.

Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

My upbringing in evangelicalism instilled me with a lot of shame for my identity. While I was told that the greatest thing in the world was to find my identity in Jesus, I was also taught that I would be hated because I found my identity in Jesus. I don't actually remember a time in … Continue reading Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

The Bible Isn’t Clear

I grew up being told that homosexuality is wrong, because the Bible is clear. Imagine my surprise when I discovered that the OT doesn't forbid same-sex relationships between women. Or that the "homosexuality" referred to in the NT wasn't at all what we mean when we talk about homosexuality today. All my life, I was … Continue reading The Bible Isn’t Clear

They Told Me To Find A Love

a poem about the love of my life; the man my Christian culture told me to avoid.

What Happens Now?

I am heartbroken. Utterly heartbroken. I don't know what to do with my grief. I don't know how to sit with all of this anger and shock and sadness. I just don't know. I've been quietly pushing back against dominionism and White christian nationalism for years. But most people could not see it. Until now.And … Continue reading What Happens Now?

A Prayer For August 2, 2020

1 Hear a just cause, O Lord; attend to my cry;    give ear to my prayer from lips free of deceit.2 From you let my vindication come;    let your eyes see the right. 3 If you try my heart, if you visit me by night,    if you test me, you will find no wickedness in me;    my mouth does not transgress.4 As for what … Continue reading A Prayer For August 2, 2020

A Prayer For July 26, 2020

O give thanks to the Lord, call on his name,    make known his deeds among the peoples.2 Sing to him, sing praises to him;    tell of all his wonderful works.3 Glory in his holy name;    let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.4 Seek the Lord and his strength;    seek his presence continually.5 Remember the wonderful works he has done,    his miracles, and the judgments he has … Continue reading A Prayer For July 26, 2020