Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

My upbringing in evangelicalism instilled me with a lot of shame for my identity. While I was told that the greatest thing in the world was to find my identity in Jesus, I was also taught that I would be hated because I found my identity in Jesus. I don't actually remember a time in … Continue reading Evangelicalism: Martyr Complex And Shame

The Bible Isn’t Clear

I grew up being told that homosexuality is wrong, because the Bible is clear. Imagine my surprise when I discovered that the OT doesn't forbid same-sex relationships between women. Or that the "homosexuality" referred to in the NT wasn't at all what we mean when we talk about homosexuality today. All my life, I was … Continue reading The Bible Isn’t Clear

They Told Me To Find A Love

a poem about the love of my life; the man my Christian culture told me to avoid.

Deconstructing & “The Other”

"Faith is supposed to be about God, not people" I remember not too long ago being one of those people. You know the ones. The kind of Christian who can acknowledge that there are those who are leaving the church in anger. I would hear them point out the toxicity and the hurt they've experienced … Continue reading Deconstructing & “The Other”

Jacob And His Sex Cult

CONTENT WARNING: Sexual Abuse, Rape, sex slaveryFor those not in the know, I am currently enrolled in a four year program called Education for Ministry. If you are #exevangelical and want to learn how to read the Bible without the lens of the Evangelical narrative, I can recommend this program. You will read the entire … Continue reading Jacob And His Sex Cult

What Happens Now?

I am heartbroken. Utterly heartbroken. I don't know what to do with my grief. I don't know how to sit with all of this anger and shock and sadness. I just don't know. I've been quietly pushing back against dominionism and White christian nationalism for years. But most people could not see it. Until now.And … Continue reading What Happens Now?

Deconstruction & Self-Care

Last week, I discussed deconstruction & complementarianism. I acknowledged how being immersed in a subculture that dictates to us how we should view and think of ourselves can have a devastating impact on one's mental health. While my focus in that post was on complementarianism, this is true of all toxic theology. Religious beliefs can … Continue reading Deconstruction & Self-Care

Deconstruction & Complementarianism

The topic of deconstruction has been coming up a lot lately with prominent figures speaking about their personal deconstruction and loss of faith. Deconstruction is a stage of faith that many go through when they stop accepting the faith they’ve been told they must have by their peers, families, and church communities. They begin to … Continue reading Deconstruction & Complementarianism

Where Do We Go From Here?

One massive issue that so many of us who have deconstructed struggle with is the question, "what is allowed for me?"Many of us have spent a lifetime being told what the lines were for us. We were allowed to believe this, not that. We were allowed to do this, not that. Boundaries were tightly enforced … Continue reading Where Do We Go From Here?

The Short Story of Pastor Jim Crandell

A short story about Pastor Jim Crandell who followed his convictions in leading his church through the pandemic. Does he trust medical experts & government leaders? Or does he trust God?