CONTENT WARNING: Sexual Abuse, Rape, sex slaveryFor those not in the know, I am currently enrolled in a four year program called Education for Ministry. If you are #exevangelical and want to learn how to read the Bible without the lens of the Evangelical narrative, I can recommend this program. You will read the entire … Continue reading Jacob And His Sex Cult
I am heartbroken. Utterly heartbroken. I don't know what to do with my grief. I don't know how to sit with all of this anger and shock and sadness. I just don't know. I've been quietly pushing back against dominionism and White christian nationalism for years. But most people could not see it. Until now.And … Continue reading What Happens Now?
Last week, I discussed deconstruction & complementarianism. I acknowledged how being immersed in a subculture that dictates to us how we should view and think of ourselves can have a devastating impact on one's mental health. While my focus in that post was on complementarianism, this is true of all toxic theology. Religious beliefs can … Continue reading Deconstruction & Self-Care
A short story about Pastor Jim Crandell who followed his convictions in leading his church through the pandemic. Does he trust medical experts & government leaders? Or does he trust God?
1 Hear a just cause, O Lord; attend to my cry; give ear to my prayer from lips free of deceit.2 From you let my vindication come; let your eyes see the right. 3 If you try my heart, if you visit me by night, if you test me, you will find no wickedness in me; my mouth does not transgress.4 As for what … Continue reading A Prayer For August 2, 2020
I was asked recently how I think God views me. Does he judge me? Does he love me? Does he accept me? And I broke into tears as I took this question in and really tried to examine it. Intellectually, yes. I believe that I am deeply loved by the God of the universe. I … Continue reading Does God Really Love Me?
Today, Josh Harris updated his Instagram account with an announcement that he no longer considers himself a Christian. In his own words: "...I have undergone a massive shift in regard to my faith in Jesus. The popular phrase for this is “deconstruction,” the biblical phrase is “falling away.” By all the measurements that I have … Continue reading Josh Harris and Empathy For The Deconstructing
I began to write this poem after watching the funeral of Rachel Held Evans. I listened to her friends and family describe her as a woman who always asked the hard questions, always loved, always gave of herself when she could. I couldn't stop thinking to myself, "They are talking about a woman who was … Continue reading Eshet Chayil
A few days ago, while looking through my memories on Facebook, I saw an old post of mine. In this post, I was talking about how, at the time, I genuinely believed that I was unlovable. I saw myself as someone who didn't deserve love or companionship because I felt inherently broken. I couldn't envision … Continue reading Loving Yourself Is Not Sin
I've been trying to put into words all that Rachel Held Evans meant to me. That's a hard thing to do. She was extremely instrumental in reshaping my own faith after I'd begun to deconstruct. So much of my life over the last 5 years has been trying to make sense of a faith that … Continue reading Because Of Rachel Held Evans