I am heartbroken. Utterly heartbroken. I don’t know what to do with my grief. I don’t know how to sit with all of this anger and shock and sadness. I just don’t know.
I’ve been quietly pushing back against dominionism and White christian nationalism for years. But most people could not see it. Until now.
And while there is a sense of validation that the whole world can now see it, it doesn’t feel good. Sure, there’s the sense of, “omgosh! I’m not crazy! It was really there all along!”, but mostly I just feel a mixture of anger and sadness.
Sadness because we never had to get to this point.
The churches I grew up in always taught to never stray from our first love of the gospel. Yet, over time, I watched as people I loved began to mix in love of right-wing politics with the gospel.
The truly bizarre thing was when I witnessed this take place in my homeland of Canada. True Christians were expected to vote conservative because, we were told, they stood up for Christian values. It was the conservatives who paid lip service to ending abortion. It was conservatives who refused until the nth hour to grant same-sex marriage when it was legalized.
The culture wars from the USA had invaded my own country.
I’ve written about the White Christian Nationalist video that went viral amongst Christians, and Canadian Christians were not exempt. In that same post, I discussed the time that the sister church of my own church, when I lived in Canada, invited John Piper to speak and he told those of us who were in attendance that day that Muslims are sensitive to radicalization by merit of being Muslim. No one raised an eyebrow and no one said a word. It was a comment thrown out in passing, and it never registered just how evil a comment it was.
Christian Nationalism didn’t just appear out of nowhere. It was an intentional and strategic move on the part of politicians and Evangelical church leaders alike.
So what happens now?
In all honesty: I don’t know.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring.
I don’t know what next week will bring or the week after that.
I just don’t know.
What I believe is that God is calling all Christians to right now, however, is repentance.
The church needs to own her role in what happened. She needs to acknowledge that she has left her first love of Christ for worldly power and influence. She needs to purge herself of all white supremacy and nationalism disguising itself as the gospel.
The church desperately needs a real revival. Right now she is at death’s door, and unless she chooses life, she will die in her sins.
We didn’t get here by mistake. We got here because we put men into leadership roles that should never have been given those platforms. We trusted them with our souls. We trusted them with our minds. We have idolized them.
And now the whole country is paying the price for our sins.
We can do better. And we have to. The stakes are too high to persist in the way we’ve been going.
But the good news is: The church can change. She can turn back. She can repent. She can do the hard work of processing what has happened, owning her part in it, and changing.
And my prayer for Evangelical Christians all over America, and those outside who have adopted American Evangelicalism’s toxicity as their own, is for real and lasting change.
This is your moment, church.
Choose this day whom you will serve.